College "Teenage Color"

College - A Real Hero (from the movie Drive)

Post-30 days of lists blogging

Damn dirty humans.  Writing is embarrassing.  The meaning comes from the ancient custom of baring one's ass.  I feel embarrassed for writing that.  And that... Why do I feel so ashamed of anything I say?   All I can hear is this voice saying, "stupid..pretentious...show-offy...boring...predicable...cliche..." and can imagine that collection of faces on my facebook 'friends' list rolling their eyes, and I want to just erase the whole thing..and boo hoo, poor me.  But then I feel like "fuck you, eye rollers", you don't know me!!  Who are you to judge me?!  Who cares what I say?  If you don't like it fuck off....And what's the point?  Why do I have to write anything?  Cause I have this insecure need to prove myself?  Cause I think that writing is to my brain, what running is to my lungs?  That it'll make me smarter, like exercise makes me stronger?  And why do I need to be smarter?  So, I can't be taken advantage of and I can take advantage of others?

And why not write?  The eye-rollers and haters'll be doing their stupid fucking short-sighted catty eye-rolling at something else and worrying about their own image, so what do I care what they think?  And why do I have fucking eye'rollers for friends and why do they have me for a friend, if I can't be myself around them?  Do they just want to keep tabs on others?  I don't think I can help it much, caring what they think.  I think it's hard-wired.  But I have this strange hypothesis I want to test that says, if I keep on writing, I'll get better at it.  And I don't think I will find myself.  I don't think there is a self to find, like this mythical hide-and-go-seek game.  But I think if I keep on writing, and take on the embarrassment of doing it publicly it's get easier and less embarrassing, and that'll make it easier to act on other things I want to do but don't cause of my fear of that little imaginary half-crescent of eye whites.

So, I feel compelled to get this out of me..this revulsion for my paranoid real or imaginary critics and their real or imaginary voices and faces and the inhibitory effects you have on me. If you disagree with something I have to say, or think I'm pretentious, I don't mind you saying so, but before you say some generic idiotic response, think about what exactly it is about what I said or did that bothers you and be specific and be prepared to defend it otherwise FUCK OFF!

And to any real or imaginary friends I may have, please excuse this little rant, I just want to clear those assholes out of my head first.  And if you actually read this far, thanks.  I'm the one publishing this, I can't control what people say or think or read about it or anything so I guess it doesn't really have anything to do with me, does it?

Reconstruction from brain activity

Things I'm most proud of

Things that were awesome about this month (in my small world, after all):

brought home the RV, safetied and  insured;
changed the oil, oil filter and air filter myself;
emptied the blackwater tank
starting the engine after stalling in the middle of Kingston Mills single lane bridge and coasting onto the shoulder;
gas @ $1.16/L;
got an air compressor with tools;
got a new cordless drill/driver;
back to school again;
introduced to emacs in a linux environment;
wrote my first shell script;
compiled my first "hello, World!" C++ program from the command line;
completed my blog goal;
cleared the house and yard of a ton of stuff;
setting the coffee maker at night;
completed week 12 of exercise;
run average down to 4:46 min/km;
run+music=endorphin rush;
J letting me buy my new toys;
K's babysitter course;
L's little songs;
M's first bumper car ride;
friends & family days!;
the weather! the weather! the weather!;
looking forward to Halloween and Holiday Season;
life existing on a ball of rock hurtling through space around a giant ball of nuclear-explosions

(Things that sucked:
the cat's ulcerated mouth).

If I ruled the world

The new government process, 'Syncronocracy' means everyone contributes in parallel.

My most overused phrases and words

Oh my god
Jesus Christ
sweet
cool
interesting
right on
:) smiley face
Maya, slow down, be careful
cereal bags don't go in the recycling bin
who left the milk bag with two drops in it?

Things to do before my next birthday

(the day before) Today's To Do List:

Things to do when you're sick

If I won the lottery...

Ready Player One: Amazon.ca: Ernest Cline: Books

Ready Player One: Amazon.ca: Ernest Cline: Books

Well, that was a fun read and it'd make for one crazy movie.

Day 30/30 = 1/1 = 1 Ways to avoid housework

Imagine your body has no bones, and lie on the couch and when you need to get a drink you roll off the couch and fall on the floor and keep rolling until you get to the fridge and find a damp puddle near the fridge and lick it up through the side of your mouth, and when you have to piss, just go in your underwear, and when you have to shit, just go in your underwear and just wallow in your shit and piss for the afternoon in your filth, and when your wife gets home, tell her you have no bones, so you couldn't do anything today.
Or you can get a pair of dice.  Walk out your front door, no matter what you are wearing and when you come to an intersection, roll the dice.  If the number is four or less you go left, if the numbers eight or less you go straight and if the numbers twelve or less, you go right.  If you have to piss or shit, don't bother finding a bathroom, just go right there.  Just keep going until you get hungry.  When you get hungry, run up to the nearest human, man, woman or child and try to mug them for their money.  And if you can find someone you can steal way their car, then repeat the same thing with the dice in the car.  Or you could break into a house and eat whatever's in their cupboards, and take anything you think you could sell.  Then run away hopefully before the cops come.  If they come, just lie on the ground and let them arrest you, and plead guilty and when you get to jail, then you will be fed, and your clothes will be washed, and you can watch tv or whatever.
That's just a couple of ways to avoid housework.

Day 29/30 Shows I wish would come back (though it wouldn't be the same)

plus this gives me an excuse to plug one of my favourite old tv moments:

Day 28/30 = 14/15 My dream space would include:

240V supply
air compressor including tools, oil-less 8 gallon,  >8 SCFM
welder, Arc, MIG & TIG
dust collector
mill
metal lathe
wood lathe
MakerBot
AutoCAD
oscilloscope
fully stocked hardware
fully stocked electronic components
laser/water cutter
press
hydraulic lift
drill press
band saw
Dremel
wet/dry vacuum
jig saw
Sawzall
biscuit cutter\
planer
joiner
chop saw
vice
clamps
router
sanders
lots of light and space
heated
table saw
hand tools
measuring tools including calipers
space for wood, metal and plastic
space for painting
...
free time

Day 27/30 = 9/10 Inventions I wish were real

Day 26/30 = 13/15 A few of my favourite things:

Bento boxes
McDonald's Coca-Cola
Java + Eclipse
My New Ridgid Drill/Driver
My Shop
Limits, Sets and Propositional Calculus
Our New RV
Complex Analysis + Holomorphic functions
0, 1, e, i, pi, phi, root 2 and infinity
Cauchy's Integral Formula
Fermat's Little Theorem
Modular Arithmetic
Groups, Rings and Fields
Linux, AMP + Open Source
Munchkin
Euler's Formula and Identity
Armadillo's, Boars and Pigs
Magnets, Elastics and Springs
Sin, Cos and Tan
A good pen or pencil
The Standard Model
Feynman Diagrams
Cats, Bats and Raccoon's
Google
Lambda Calculus and LISP
Gauss' Law
Pulleys, Levers, Ramps and Screws
Books
Go Karts
Running + Music
+ - / * ^ ! mod
Dot product, cross product and row reductions
Cuckoo Clocks
...

SPACE TIME

Day 25/30 = 5/6 : Fictional characters that I like

Part 1...1979 Solar Van, Dodge Sportsman/Bug Out Vehicle/Home Away From Home (part 1) - YouTube

Part 1...1979 Solar Van, Dodge Sportsman/Bug Out Vehicle/Home Away From Home (part 1) - YouTube

Bug out Vehicle (BoV) Outfitting « Suburban Survivalist

Bug out Vehicle (BoV) Outfitting « Suburban Survivalist

I just discovered I'm not the only one who's ulterior motive for buying the RV was in case of societal breakdown.

There's a whole subculture and there's a name for these vehicles and they come with an acronym:

the Bug-Out Vehicle or BoV.

Day 24/30 = 4/5 Dream Jobs

Inventor
Mathematician
Physicist
Nutty Professor
Video Game Designer
Video Game Tester
Board Game Designer/Tester
Writer
Architect
Movie Director
Worm Picker
Concert Pianist
Black Belt Instructor
...

Lame posts

School has taken over aaandd..something else to show tomorrow, hence the lame picture posts and tardiness.

Day 23/30 Never have I ever:

Never have I ever:
had my tonsils out
tried heroin
finished high school
been fluent in another language
been fluent at an instrument
kept up on the textbook readings

Day 22/30 = 11/15 My favourite outfit

Day 21/30 = 7/10 Things I do to procrastinate...

Day 20/30 = 2/3 What motivates me

Day 19/30 Thins I love about this time of year

Day 18/30 = 3/5 At This Moment...

..feeling annoyed and embarrassed by two douche-bags, I'm assuming to be Queens students, that flicked a laser pointer at the drive-thru worker at McDonald's.  Wishing I did lay on my horn when I passed them on the street but wasn't sure it came from them.

Also, happy that M&E came over this afternoon and hung out.  It was nice to just shoot the shit with them and funny to hear this crazy story about El Burrito.

Dreading working tomorrow, working on Sunday feels like a tombstone at the end of the week but I probably should be grateful I still got all my limbs.

Also, can't help thinking that the title of the post reminds me of that song on Family Ties, and how good Micheal J Fox was on that show, and how you don't see that kind of stuff anymore, but you do on HBO.

A little excited, a little anxious to see what's in store with school next week.  A little disappointed I didn't start the billion dollar business I wanted to this summer.  But I did have some good times with family and friends.

Play him off keyboard cat!

Day 17/30 Plans for the Weekend

Day 16/30 = 8/15 Things that remind me of my childhood

Day 14/30 = 7/15 (xor 6/30), Favourite Colour Combinations

Day 13/30 ( xor 5/30)

Day 12/30 = 2/5, Day 4/30 Things To Do on a Sunday, (catch-up later)

(calling mulligan for camping the last 2 days)

Day 11/30 and Day 1/30 Days of Lists

Day 10/30 = 1/3 : Cholesterol Vs. Time

Day 9/30 = 3/10 / Games I've Beaten

Cowabunga!  Spent the evening at my brother, JCs house with his family and friends.  Our buddy M is having a birthday on Thursday.  Not sure if we'd get out with them yet, so we had poker night on Saturday and ate some steak with him and his family tonight.  JC built this awesome MAME system, 4 player stand-up.  Had fun horsing around with the kidlets in the backyard.  We managed to do a little haronuking each other on StreetFighter II, explored the dungeons some in Gauntlet II and even beat the radical TMNT, the first one, 4 player with K  The sound of arcade games is music to the ears.  Looking forward to crossing more off the list with them in the future.  Is there an end to Marble Madness?  Dynomite!

Almost didn't run today, almost cut it short but hell no!  I got my ass out there and ran it as usual.  Gotta be on guard for those excuses.  They like to slip in the back door and next thing you know your belly's pudging out.

This afternoon I worked on the a video that I was hoping to post today but it's going to need more work.

Stay tuned and see you in the futurrrre!

Day 8/30 = 4/15

After a late night for both of us, as J wished, we took the kids for a hike at a trail I heard of just up Taylor-Kidd, past Collins Bay Rd over the bridge and through a hole in the trees.  There's a lazy creek running through the woods where the minnows swim and the crayfish lurk. I spotted a palm-sized orange butterfly with two brown stripes like a W on it's back fluttering heavily upon leaves. The kids kidnapped a tadpole which now sits on K's desk, awaiting transformation.  We spent the rest of the day and night white washing over our red bedroom, to achieve J's Cape Cod look.  She's painting the railing and the stairs grey.  We consumed much grease and salt in the form of hashbrowns, cheeseburgers, poutine and soda pop.  While painting, I listened to Springsteen, Weezer and the entire Joshua Tree album again. Man, that album still rocks.

Day 7/30

Big Red's Style Tips.  When you're considering decorating your windows, and you're looking for that classic style but you're too poor to afford real curtains, then look no further then flags on windows.  Nothing says class like a rebel flag bought from a parking lot hung over your window.

If you can't find a flag, a towel will do nicely in a pinch.

Day 6/30 = 1/5 : Bar Flys Vs Age

I just realized this:

Day 5/30 = 1/6

I don't know what to say today.  I can't think of anything useful, meaningful or entertaining to say.  But I have to write something to keep the gears working.I wrote a few things and erased them, they just seemed pointless.  This morning, I got up earlier and worked out, had a phone meeting, did the dishes, added a layer of mud to the drywall repair and edited the wedding video.  I watched the kids, surfed the net and hung out with J.  Tonight, I work, cabbing.  Time for supper.  Maybe by tomorrow I will feel more inspired.

BookBook for iPhone - BookBook for iPhone - Twelve South

Desirable things:

BookBook for iPhone - BookBook for iPhone - Twelve South

www.math.purdue.edu/~branges/apology.pdf

www.math.purdue.edu/~branges/apology.pdf

A great treatise on the Riemann Hypothesis.

SLC ConEd Registration Page

SLC ConEd Registration Page

I want to take this course in the Fall.

That and the air-brakes course.

In fact I would like to get as many licenses as I can before I die.

Day 4/30 = 2/15

In spite of my lack of expertise:

Day 3/30 = 1/10

Before:

Today I vacuumed the house from top to bottom cause I got these bites around my underwear hems that has been driving me insane.  So insane, that I spent the day vacuuming every crack and crevice in the house.  I went to the laundromat and filled 7 washers with clothes including the heavy duty.  This is what happens when I try to do something I should do like work on making these before pictures into the after ones.  I feel the urge to put everything in order first.  I did get the corner bead I need for the drywall corners while the clothes were washing.  That stuff is like a razor blade for giants.  If I get another bite, I'm gonna burn the fucking house down.

Bruce Springsteen - "Wild Billy's Circus Story" Live

Day 2/30

(
I want to add a few more items to the to-do list:

• fix up and paint the bedroom
• build a sensory deprivation tank
• build myStats prototype

)

Went for a run this morning.  I've gotten my run up from 25 to 45 minutes.  I estimate it's around 9 km.

Like writing does for my brain, I like what running does for my body and brain.  I read somewhere that it takes 25 minutes of exercise before your body starts burning fat tissue, and that time can be decreased by drinking a coffee beforehand.  So that's what I do.

I'm on week 6 of exercising again.  Like many people I do good for a while, then something gets in the way and before I know it I'm not exercising anymore. 

My routine is M-W-F work-out, T-Th-S run using a Men's Health program that seems to work.  After 4 weeks, the workout's is supposed to be 4 days a week but then I miss the running.  It's the running that works the best for me.  It's meditative, it forces me to breathe and gets me out of the house and into the sunlight and trees.

But I want to also do less.  That's what I want to build the tank for. I think that doing the opposite of exercise and work is also beneficial to one's existence.

Well, that's all I'm gonna say for today.  Gotta get out and start working on The List.

30 Days of Light.

Inspired by Suzanne Henderson's quest to blog for 100 days at Simple Teaching, today I commence my attempt for 30 days.  Of course, nothing ever goes as planned but here's what I hope to accomplish this year:

• 30 days of blogging
• keep exercising
• +80%  in my courses this fall
• finish editing the wedding video
• get PHP, MySQL and Apache running on my computer
• finish the wall behind Jessi's computer
• fix the chimney
• get the RV home, running and ready for winter
• clear out the old fence and rubble and build a new fence
• keep my shop clean
• write an app

I'm gonna cut it off there.  Cross off day 1 of blogging.

Eliminate Your Excuses by Reframing Them

Eliminate Your Excuses by Reframing Them

Hello Today

Test post.

Dispatches from the Frontier

Got a new toy today and now I can interweb while cabbing.  This is me driving down the freeway.
jk

...and after.

Finally got the 'masturbatorium' finished.